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[Oct. 6th, 2004|12:59 pm]
Azami - Bloody Hachimitsu
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Social Gratification.
There are those you dearly love, whom you have acknowledged as one of your own and as separate, important identities that you not only befriend for human companionship and understanding... but an avenue of sacrifice and to diminish the illusion of human separateness. People like these, make us realise that we are part of a bigger picture. That we have a purpose and mechanism no matter how great or small.
...and then there are those who you would liken to eating a giant bowl of strawberry icecream. In itself, the ice cream is nothing important, or has no identity or feelings that mean even a thing to you..but give temporary feelings of pleasure and settlement. They are an extension of yourself, just another rusty screw to support your feisable existance. You test your social skills upon them, and evaluate yourself. They are mere bricks, a test of self-worth. As mirrors to reflect the view of yourself, they are quite unreliable. Every one will be different, and the more you obtain, the more insecure and confused you become about your reasons for being here.
Well, you don't need these kinds of people. You should not use them, especially if they recognise you as somebody important, and somebody who they are willing to give a part of themselves up for. They will only produce worthless questions, that will unduly challenge your confidence and self esteem. You can find better mirrors in those who matter, and the best one of all lies within your own mind.. the decisions you make about yourself, your existance and what you plan to do with it. Who you plan to share this with, what level of humanity (or inhumanity, for some) you will dwell within and continue to dwell there even after death. The mind doesn't die, if it has found it's home once the body passes on.
So these pointless acquaintances, by all means nurture them where necessary. Be polite, provide for their needs if it brings you pleasure, but do not give them false hope... do not keep them close and most of all, do not allow them to bring you pain or confusion. If they are not within your borders, then that is exactly where they wish to stay. They will learn a valuable lesson by your refusal to right of entry into your heart, they will learn a little more about themselves..they will be able to step back, and view the reality around them.. and see that it is different from yours. Shed no tears for them, because they will be in vain. Because in your world, they are mere flowers. Pretty for a moment, their scent brings pleasure... but they hold no significance and it would certainly not do you any good to cry if they wilted, especially when there are magnificent angels that drift by your side and one too many dangerous creatures lurking behind your back. |
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